All of This Will End - Indigo De Souza Album Review
Change is difficult, especially when we aren't prepared for it. Indigo De Souza knows this first hand. Her recently released album “All of This Will End”, is an in-depth depiction of what it’s like to exist in times of significant change. This marks her second full-length album release since the start of the COVID-19 pandemic which for many was a time of grief, loss, and loneliness. These themes are omnipresent in De Souza’s lyricism and guide the story of the album.
De Souza is no stranger to writing bout the moments that have shaped who she is, even if they aren’t picture-perfect.
“You know what you did. You know what you took from me. It makes me sick to think of that night.”
These lyrics are on the pulsating synth-pop track entitled “You Can Be Mean”. There’s an interesting dichotomy between the upbeat, almost playful instrumental, and the serious lyrics depicting the abuse De Souza faced in a former relationship. In a post about the song released on De Souza’s Instagram, the singer states:
Indigo De Souza shot by Jessie Fuentes for Melodía Magazine (2023)
“I wrote ‘You Can Be Mean’ about a brief toxic experience I had with a manipulative and abusive LA model f*ckboy. However brief, it had a life-long impact on my understanding of self.”
She goes on to detail her former belief that she could “Help abusive people through their trauma and teach them how to love her in the way she deserved” and the responsibility she felt for those who treated her poorly.
De Souza’s love life wasn’t the only relationship she spoke about on this album. Her uncertainty and fear of her changing friendships can be heard on track 3, “Losing”:
“Am I trying hard enough? Or am I trying too much? I keep feeling like an idiot when I reach out to touch and there is nobody there- to see me- no not really.”
De Souza struggled with losing her old friend group and connecting with new people. Her candor on the subject is one of the factors that sets her apart in the music industry. She is unafraid to depict vulnerability in a relatable and blunt manner.
This album is filled with fear, anger, loneliness, hopes for the future, and this review only scratches the surface. Overall, this album is an excellent depiction of change, the human need to examine our relationships, and how they shape who we are. I leave you with lyrics from the album’s final track, “Younger & Dumber” which I believe encapsulates “All of This Will End” perfectly.
“Which way will I run when I want something new?
I don't feel at home in this house anymore
Which way will I run when I'm over you?
I don't feel at home in this town…
When I was youngerYounger and dumber
I didn't know better”
You can stream “All of This Will End” on Spotify, YouTube Music, and Apple Music. You can see Indigo De Souza on tour now! She will be performing at Space Ballroom in Hamden, CT on May 26th and 27th. The opener is North Carolina native Sluice. Tickets are available for purchase on Eventbrite.
